Boston bombing suspect Dzhokhar Tsarnaev expressed anger at the United States and jealousy that his brother had died a martyr in a note written while hiding from authorities, according to court documents released Wednesday.
Officials found the note Tsarnaev wrote in a boat he hid in just before he was captured last year following the deadly Boston Marathon bombing.
“I’m jealous of my brother who ha[s] [re]ceived the reward of jannutul Firdaus (inshallah) before me. I do not mourn because his soul is very much alive,” wrote Tsarnaev.
“God has a plan for each person. Mine was to hide in this boat and shed some light on our actions,” he continued. “I ask Allah to make me a shahied (iA) to allow me to return to him and be among all the righteous people in the highest levels of heaven.”
Tsarnaev also wrote that he did not like killing innocent people, but believed his actions were justified because the U.S. was killing Muslims.
“The US Government is killing our innocent civilians but most of you already know that,” he said. “I can’t stand to see such evil go unpunished, we Muslims are one body, you hurt one you hurt us all.”
Tsarnaev said U.S. actions had “awoken the mujahideen."
"[K]now you are fighting men who look into the barrel of your gun and see heaven, now how can you compete with that,” he continued.
A judge in February set a trial date for Tsarnaev of Nov. 3. The Justice Department announced earlier this year that it will seek the death penalty against him.
Tsarnaev has pleaded not guilty to 30 charges.
The bombing attack on April 15, 2013, left three people dead and more than 260 wounded.