Pop superstar Lady Gaga said that she had a “total psychotic break” after she was raped at 19.

During an interview on Prince Harry, the Duke of Sussex, and Oprah Winfrey’s mental health docuseries, “The Me You Can’t See,” Gaga discussed trauma, abuse and sexual assault.

“I had a total psychotic break, and for a couple years, I was not the same girl,” Gaga said about her time after the assault, Vulture reported.

Gaga also recounted that she endured ongoing abuse from a music producer who she says threatened to burn her music if she didn’t take her clothes off.  

“I just froze and I— I don’t even remember,” Gaga said. “And I will not say his name. I understand this Me Too movement, and I understand people feel real comfortable with this, and I do not. I do not ever want to face that person again.”

The singer says years later, she was experiencing chronic pain and her doctor advised her to see a psychiatrist. She discovered that she had PTSD. 

“I realized it was the same pain I felt when the person who raped me dropped me off pregnant on the corner, at my parents’ house, because I was vomiting and sick. Because I was being abused. I was locked away in a studio for months,” Gaga said.

Along with the PTSD, Gaga discussed her struggles with self-harm.

“Even if I have six brilliant months, all it takes is getting triggered once to feel bad,” she said. “And when I say I feel bad, I mean I want to cut. Think about dying. Wondering if I’m ever going to do it. I learned all the ways to pull myself out of it.”