Story at a glance

  • NikkieTutorials is a Dutch Youtuber and makeup artist who gained fame for her makeup tutorial videos.
  • She posted a video on her Youtube channel coming out as transgender after she was blackmailed.
  • Fans and celebrities are sharing their support on social media for Nikkie after the video.

Nikkie de Jager, known by her online persona NikkieTutorials, said she wanted her art to do the speaking on the Youtube channel she started in 2008. But after being blackmailed about being transgender, she decided to come out publicly.  

“There always was going to be the day where I would tell you, and I did not expect that day to be today, but here we are,” she said in a nearly 20-minute long video on her channel

De Jager said that while she didn’t necessarily feel comfortable labelling herself, she felt the need to take control over her own narrative after others threatened to out her to the press. 

“I’m not scared. So to the people who’re trying to blackmail me and thought they could mess up my life with that, this one’s for you,” she said raising a middle finger. “I hope you can sit nice on it.”

The Dutch Youtuber has gained more than 12 million subscribers after a video she posted in 2015 went viral. She started uploading makeup tutorials at the age of 14, before enrolling in cosmetology school and working as a professional makeup artist. 

“This was my way out. I started my channel back in the days when I got really really bullied for all of this and this was my way out,” she told viewers, sharing the story of her transition. 

Born in a male body, de Jager said she knew at an early age that she was a girl. Her mother and teachers were supportive, and she thanked them in the video, along with other members of her family, her manager and her fiancé. 

“Ever since I was born, I’ve always thought that I was a girl, and I just couldn’t understand why I had short hair or why I had to wear trousers and a t-shirt and why couldn’t I wear dresses,” she continued. 

By the age of 6, she grew her hair out, and soon started only wearing clothes traditionally reserved for girls. She started taking hormones and growth stoppers to fully transition by 19.   

“I have literally grown up and transformed into me in front of all of you,” de Jager said. 

After fully transitioning, she didn’t want to talk about that chapter of her life anymore. But multiple blackmail attempts left her with no choice, she said. Still, she hopes that sharing her past would inspire others like her and said filming the video felt liberating. 

“If you feel like you’re trapped and there’s no way out, know that it gets better. It gets better,” she told viewers.

A day after the video was posted on Jan. 13, it had more than 16 million views and 1.7 millions likes. The caption of the video simply read, "I love you all so much..."

Fans and supporters responded on social media with words of solidarity, including singer Ariana Grande and fellow Youtuber Patrick Starrr.

Ingrid van Engelshoven, the Dutch Minister of Education, Culture and Science, also tweeted in support of de Jager, saying in Dutch, "You are really free if you can be who you are. Role models are of great importance for emancipation. NikkieTutorials⁩ is such a role model."

Published on Jan 14, 2020